Another late start on a weekend for me. My wife has left for work hours ago and I was well into another sleep cycle. I get up a second time this morning, stretch, shower, check all my networking sites all in an odd silence. It's not one of the ominous "too quiet" moments, just more quiet than usual.
The internet doesn't take my mind off of it, neither does finishing a painting. So I decide to catch up on some blogs I've missed out on over the past few weeks. It was here that I read a nice little description, so fitting to my morning, that made me realize what this quiet was. I'm lonely. The craziest part was getting smacked in the face with, "I'm missing out on so much human interaction simply by missing church." Of course I immediately jump back to facebook and update my status with this realization, must be a defense to not dwell on it. Obviously, I'm dwelling.
It seems I lack the drive to pull a group of people together to do community with. I don't blame it on work as it seems everyone I know has part of their weekends free. I can't say I'm a huge fan of Panera, but if it draws people out, let's meet there. I must veto Starbucks outright though, too pricey.
With the enlightenment of my wife, I will make a list. (In our past 5 1/2 months of marriage she has pointed out, if it's not on a list, I won't do it. I laughed at first, now I see it's true.) These are the people I must make time for:
My Wife
My Parents
My Sister's Family
My Brother, whenever he gets back into the states
Katie, Matt, Kerri, Derek and Maria
Jack and Debbie
Rob and Jennifer
Sheena and Andrew
In light of my late rising morning, and dismissive weeks, I must give more time to the God who first loved me. I've heard many times that our earthly relationships are a reflection of our heavenly relationship. As you can see, I've been missing some people.
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